This weekend has me feeling like I'm a living experiemnt of my own inquiry. What I mean by this is that, at this point in my own personal weight loss journey (90 lbs) I somewhat feel like I've got this down. I know (for the most part) what works and doesn't work for my body and what my triggers are. But this weekend I'm feeling "off." I kind of have been since about Thursday of this past week and I know what has triggered it but not sure how to "squash" it!
This Fall has been unsually busy for me espeically this past week. My best friend married her soul mate and I was a bridesmaid. In addition to, my boyfriend was in town for this event and to spend some time with me. To bring this whirlwind to a close, I had one last wedding last night of a childhood friend marrying her soulmate and our hometown's mayor! I'm exhausted to say the least--this morning I slept in until 930am (that's VERY rare for me)!
I realized tonight what the "off" part is in regards to my boyfriend leaving town--this isn't the first time...we are currently in a long distance relationship so this is our "normal." But this time I realized that we work SO much better physically together even with a good of a job that we do of being apart. We get work done (and done well) together, we have fun, we are happy, etc. I'm at the point where I get it...while we know how to do long distance, we do toghether 100 times better! I think it was that last of my "hurdles" of trust to get over--not trusting him when we are apart, I got that down at some point a while back. But in trusting my heart that is really is the one for me and that us apart isn't what's meant to be.
Before I get carried away, this isn't a "love blog" it's a healthy living mentality one. So to stay on track....
My healthy mentality here is that I know (through and through) that I've met my "better half" and that what I've felt before isn't just missing him but missing my other half. It's the whole idea of you don't know what you are missing until you don't have it anymore.
So to get off my pitty party habits that I've had all weekend....I need to get back to what is my "regular" schedule of life. Work, school, working out, and eating right. I know this is a holiday week but all the more reason to get back on my track--plus I turn 30 in two weeks, no need to throw myself a pitty party!
So at this point--on a personal level--mentality plays a key role in my healthy living. Without being aware of my "hiccups", emotions, negativity, etc. I would fall off "track". In addition to, being aware and addressing what ever it is that is hindering me from progressing is important too. Without addressing it, I continue to stay in that "stuck" mode which over time can pull me back to where I started. I'll probably go more into that later. I'm not trying to answer this all in one post, nor do I think I have.
Until later,
Healthy Thoughts!
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